The second man I had sex with, pothead Brian, I also met my freshman year, and I thought he was a potential soul mate. He fit the typical guy I am attracted to; brown hair, colored eyes, and a good smile. Things began slow in comparison to my first man. I asked him to be my date to our sororities grab a date party and we sucked our faces off on the dance floor. The older girls in the sorority reprimanded me for being “sluty” even though I am sure they were just jealous. Then the next time we got together, I thought he was in love with me or at least thought we would get into a relationship. This was also my first night of juggling two men. I had met a senior, Ryan, who was like Keanu Reeves with a drug addiction. I knew he abused prescription drugs, but still I said hey why not I’ll give him a try. So my dog faced girlfriend Ramona, druggie Ryan, and I were drinking in the dorms and I get a call from Brian who was seeing if I wanted to go on a ride with him and his friend. YES, of course I wanted Brian way more than the pill popping Keanu Reeves. So I left Ramona and Ryan to fend for themselves in hopes they would hook up, while Brian and I sat in the back seat of his friend’s car making out passionately not being able to keep our hands off one another. Not even caring we originally were going on a ride to get high. Anyways, we got back to my dorm where Ryan and Ramona were just talking and Ryan would not leave and Brian obviously wanted to spend the night with me. Looking back I should have either suggested a threesome or Ryan and I should have gone back to his dorm, but I am a good friend and couldn’t ditch Ramona. However, I was stuck awkwardly cuddling with Ryan and Ramona and Brian were in Door Handel’s bed. In the morning I learned Ramona had gave Brian head and was now in love with him herself. Bitch he’s mine I wanted to tell her, but I didn’t have the guts to be honest and tell her point blank she was sloppy seconds. So when she realized he liked me our friendship was done and of course I was the bad guy. And you may be wondering why I still had hope in getting with Brian and he didn’t do anything to reciprocate the favor. I don’t blame him if some guy started going down on me that I didn’t like, I wouldn’t stop him as long as he was talented.
So I truly think I am in love with this guy, and he asked me to go to his frat dance with him. Therefore, another night he asked me to come meet him at his friend’s house for a party. Soon after I got there we went into his friends room for I thought making out and maybe a hand job or a blowjob since I had my period. However as we were making out on the bed he took out my tampon. And I was like NO I do not want to be a slut and have sex with him because I was taught to hold off on sex to hold onto a man (true statement). For even though I kept saying no, he knew I wanted him and I did, so my no’s turned to yes and he slipped a condom on and gently entered me and I went with it. Then after we had sex I figured there was no point to hold out so we had gotten together on other occasions. But he never took me to that dance, he asked another girl from his dorm. So heartbroken I hoped to never make this mistake again falling for an asshole. But I don’t think I ever learned my lesson.
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